Tag Archives: Fear

The Look

It was the LOOK smashed me to pieces broke the trust shamed me created immobility out of my fear and helplessness. I trusted my high school teacher worked with her on dramatic interpretive pieces that dug deep into my vulnerabilities, … Continue reading

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Mental Grooves

I open my eyes. Nestled in bed, comfortably warm under a fluffy sage bed cover, I peer out through the sliding glass door of our bedroom that opens up to the panorama of hillsides north of the Willamette River. In … Continue reading

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The Clear Bead at the Center

Several weeks ago, deep in the night, in my bed, in the dark, I experienced this: My mind bouncing around in fear like a jetliner bounces around when flying through a rough storm. Caught in that turbulence, I couldn’t think … Continue reading

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Healing at Work – Day 32

Tomorrow is officially my last day of work, although I may do some on-call follow up work over the next couple of weeks. Mixed feelings go through me. Fear rises up but, when I remember, I accept it and let … Continue reading

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Truth telling

Confusion Clouds the sky Perfumes the air with danger and vulnerability. Mindfulness, concentrated and stable, burns away the clouds. Fear, sorrow, grasping Dissolve. The spider’s web Sparkles with the morning dew. Fragile, Strong, She holds all in her reflective net. … Continue reading

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Healing at Work – Day 5

Conquer – FACE my fears of what I want/think and how others will react to me or how it might “hurt” them. Do I worry about how people will react to me? When I am explaining something or asking for … Continue reading

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Healing at Work – Day 2

Yesterday I posted the day’s journal writing on my blog. Last night my husband said he hoped my boss never reads it. That triggered anxious thoughts in me. Should I change “demeaning” to “condescending” or “patriarchal” to “paternalistic”? Should I … Continue reading

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